This is how it is in my head today. I will not die from cancer. I will live for my little boy, my Husband, my family, my friends, my readers. This is my decision and I can do it. There is no giving up. There is no self-limiting talk. The only way is forward, up and out of this cancer diagnosis, back to “No Evidence of Dis-ease”.
I’ve got the rest of my life to lead. I’m only 35 and I’ve always had big plans 🤣 I want more children with my amazing Husband, Derek. I want, more than ever, for us to grow old together and have many awesome adventures raising our amazing son (and any other kids we might have) into wonderful, kind humans. I want to see my son fall in love, get married, go to college if he wants, find his joy in life. He is, when all is said and done, my meaning in this life. I will not die from cancer, for him. This is my decision.
I want to live for my family. For my friends. For my readers. I love my life with them all and there are so many places I still want to go, goals to achieve, good times, sad times and bad times for us all to have together. Life is beautiful and I WANT IT ALL. ALL OF IT.
It’s the day after a chemo infusion and yes, perhaps I’m a little emotional (is it the steroids talking?!). But I feel some things have got to be said, written, immortalised. And this is one of them. For me, and maybe for others, too? So this is where I’m going, everyone. This is my decision.
I think it’s good to get this down. To be clear. To myself and the world. I feel like it started with this post a few weeks ago, but that it’s growing and getting stronger now.
Once a decision is made in our minds, it plans the road map forward, helps make the right choices, leads the way. It becomes clear what helps with our decision and what does not. The path to success becomes revealed and achievable. Don’t you think?
Would writing out a ‘cancer decision’ (or even a decision on anything) like this be something that could help you? Let me know in the comments if I have inspired you to write a decision today.
By Happy Magazine Editor, Holly Kennedy.