I will not die from cancer – this is my decision

This is how it is in my head today. I will not die from cancer. I will live for my little boy, my Husband, my family, my friends, my readers. This is my decision and I can do it. There is no giving up. There is no self-limiting talk. The only way is forward, up and out of this cancer diagnosis, back to “No Evidence of Dis-ease”.

I’ve got the rest of my life to lead. I’m only 35 and I’ve always had big plans 🤣 I want more children with my amazing Husband, Derek. I want, more than ever, for us to grow old together and have many awesome adventures raising our amazing son (and any other kids we might have) into wonderful, kind humans. I want to see my son fall in love, get married, go to college if he wants, find his joy in life. He is, when all is said and done, my meaning in this life. I will not die from cancer, for him. This is my decision.

I want to live for my family. For my friends. For my readers. I love my life with them all and there are so many places I still want to go, goals to achieve, good times, sad times and bad times for us all to have together. Life is beautiful and I WANT IT ALL. ALL OF IT.

It’s the day after a chemo infusion and yes, perhaps I’m a little emotional (is it the steroids talking?!). But I feel some things have got to be said, written, immortalised. And this is one of them. For me, and maybe for others, too? So this is where I’m going, everyone. This is my decision.

I think it’s good to get this down. To be clear. To myself and the world. I feel like it started with this post a few weeks ago, but that it’s growing and getting stronger now.

Once a decision is made in our minds, it plans the road map forward, helps make the right choices, leads the way. It becomes clear what helps with our decision and what does not. The path to success becomes revealed and achievable. Don’t you think?

Would writing out a ‘cancer decision’ (or even a decision on anything) like this be something that could help you? Let me know in the comments if I have inspired you to write a decision today.

By Happy Magazine Editor, Holly Kennedy.


  1. marie wallis
    7 February, 2020 / 7:38 am

    Wow Holly what a powerful message to wake up to. All last year I was a total victim to this bloody disease. You inspire me with your will of iron. I want to frame this message and read it every day. You are wonderful wonderful wonderful. I thought about you a lot yest as I knew you were in for treatment. To you your courage your strength I salute you. Love and hope going forward. Marie Wallis. Xxx

  2. Sharon
    7 February, 2020 / 8:34 am

    Holly, your powerful words are awe inspiring. You are strong and I believe the power of the human spirit, never ever give up. I live my life differently these days, I constantly say and think I’m living my best life right now. I’ve never felt more enriched than I have since my own diagnosis in July 2028. I’m truly happy with my lot and every day I’m grateful for being able to swing my legs out of bed and start my day. Keep doing what u are doing x

  3. Claire Higgins
    7 February, 2020 / 9:38 am

    Dear Holly I was very touched by your post. You are truly inspirational. I also want to echo keep doing what you are doing. Your family must be very proud of you.

  4. Patricia Hart
    7 February, 2020 / 10:50 am

    Absolutely! You GO GIRL!!! Your body will listen. That big C is going to run like hell! 🥰😍
    See how small it’s getting 😁

  5. Ann Marie
    7 February, 2020 / 2:14 pm

    Holly, your post made me cry as l face round 2 of my cancer battle which is now in my liver. l have that conversation in my head every now and then about been here in the future for my 2 boys. l think its good to put that down on paper. As always you are a true inspiration. You should be getting a politicans wage for helping the cancer warriers of this country. xx

  6. Geraldine Cahill
    8 February, 2020 / 7:05 am

    Well said Holly. I will not die from Cancer either. I read an article recently that it is fear that holds us back and stops us living our life. What’s the first thing that takes us over when we receive a diagnosis, wait for test results, it’s fear. It stops us believing in ourselves. It wants to stop us believing in the power of our own ability to heal, to live our lives to the fullest and in our faith. So I’m with you Holly. Just believe it.❤️

  7. Patricia
    10 February, 2020 / 8:52 pm

    The mind is very powerful Holly and I strongly believe in positive thinking. I had already written my positive statement. Thank you for reaffirming this. Stay well and stay positive.

  8. Mary McDonnell
    10 February, 2020 / 10:03 pm

    Dear Holly, it is said that writing things down makes something real when you see it in words. It becomes a Goal to reach and moves you forward. Good luck with your treatment and all the best to you.

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