Trigger warning: Advanced breast cancer
Hi everyone. Holly here. This is the post I had hoped I’d never have to write. Some of you already know, or maybe you have even guessed, with the silence here over the past week.
During the last two months I’ve been experiencing some symptoms and these eventually brought me back to my oncology team in the last few weeks. We’ve done some scans and have discovered that the triple negative breast cancer I originally had is back, this time in my liver and lung. My oncology team have been extremely swift and helpful and I am very grateful. I’ll be starting chemo again today.
This has come as a huge shock to me and my family, especially as I had been feeling very well and positive up until the new symptoms started. (For those of you who are wondering, as I always do when I read something like this, the new symptoms were, nonspecific abdominal pain, and pain in my side/back when lying down.)
We are where we are and now the only way is forward.
So, I am meeting this new chapter with enthusiasm and positive expectancy. I have started eating even better, looking after my body with some extra helpful supplements, continuing to get enough sleep, continuing light exercise every day, and ramping up on my relaxation, meditation and positive visualisation.
I am looking forward to starting chemo again, and seeing chemo work again for me. I am looking forward to supporting my body and mind through every step of this, in every way that I can.
So, let’s be positive together?
If you will, join me on this journey. Help me stay strong and filled with positive expectancy. I’ve beaten this cancer into submission once before and I will do it again.
Creating and growing Happy Magazine has been an incredible source of positivity and strength to me and I have no doubt it will continue to be. Going forward I will be posting new content as and when I have it and hope you will all continue to come and see what’s new here.
The September print issue of Happy Magazine is well underway, with a full complement of advertisers, helpful articles and inspirational content. It is likely now that it will be delayed, but I have every intention of completing it and getting it out across the country as soon as I can. Please bear with me. Please also accept my apologies if you have sent me a correspondence recently which I have not yet replied to.
For all my fellow triple negative and breast cancer warriors: Please don’t let my re-diagnosis shake your confidence in your own journey. Remember, no two cancers are the same and no two journeys are the same. Stay strong. Climb your own mountain. Take care of yourself, body, mind and spirit and trust that all will be well.
My core advice remains the same: If you notice any new changes/symptoms in your body, call your oncology team and get seen to, as soon as you can. Be persistent if you need to be. But don’t let the fear of cancer rule your life. Life is too precious to waste any time – enjoy the moment, enjoy what is good about today and keep moving forward.
Currently my family and I are all adjusting to our new normal and preparing for my first chemo, but I’ll be back soon! Please stay positive.