You know, not every day can be a great day. Or even a good day. Sometimes there are days with a little bit of joy, and others with a lot of joy. Since my cancer diagnosis I have learnt the importance of seeking all of the joy (big or small) in a day and taking the time, the moments, to enjoy it.
I have learnt so much from my cancer diagnosis that I can say that yes, it has been a good thing – having cancer! Really. Doesn’t that sound so strange? But there is no denying that I have grown so much as a person, I have learnt so much about real life and what is really important, I have realised that the ‘old me’ had it ‘all wrong’ in so many ways.
And that is also hard to admit. I do wish it hadn’t taken cancer to be the thing to wake me up to some of the realities of my life – poor diet, no exercise, little self-care, high work stress, shallow priorities, etc. But it was and it is and there’s no point trying to go back. Instead I try to focus on the fact that the new me is much better!
But harder though, is that sometimes I still struggle so very much with everything that happened. That sometimes, in the middle of the day, or in the middle of the night, despite all my best efforts, a terrible bit of fear grips me and paralyses me.
But I suppose that’s part and parcel of all of this. And that it may never go away. That I need to live my life anyway, despite the fear. That we all do. Brings to mind that book… ‘Feel the Fear and Do It Anyway’. That’s it.
And some days, this is easier than others.
This week I came across this song by Florida Georgia Line called Talk You Out Of It. If you’ve been reading Happy Magazine for awhile now, you’ll know I’m partial to a little bit of American Country music 😉 Well, this song cheered me up this week, in a few moments where I was feeling sorry for myself.
I hope you’ll enjoy it and I hope you all have a lovely Sunday.
PS – I need a playlist for the shower… Who does that?! I want to do that 🙂